Longer-term goals are just goals that have been broken down into shorter-term goals. Focus on the short-term goals and allow yourself to course-correct as needed and follow a few connections as you desire.
-## Dead ends and lonely roads
+## Dead ends and changing topography
Sometimes we'll find ourselves learning something that's a dead end. We're not making the progress that we thought we'd be making. We're not finding it as engaging or as exciting as we'd imagined. We're realizing that what we're learning is an evolutionary dead-end in the realm of programming. What then?
All three of these can pose their own problems for learning but it's up to us to take a more critical look at why we started this whole process of learning. What did we bring into this?
-(Discuss our expectations and how they can help and hurt us, and how to be mindful of our expectations).
+In each of these cases we brought our expectations of how the learning would progress. We brought the expectation that it would always be fun, engaging, and relevant. Sometimes our expectations about learning do pan out, but when they don't we get discouraged and disappointed.
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+Rather than being upset with how the learning didn't meet our expectations we can take a more mindful approach. We can see ourselves in the moment of learning and see if we're trying to bring more than our focused attention into the container. We can realize that learning is not always going to be fun or engaging and that we can concentrate on the learning.
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+That doesn't mean we shouldn't acknowledge our feelings. We can certainly feel the feelings of boredom, anxiety, disillusionment, and so on. But we can also be mindful of where those feelings come from. Are we truly bored or is this our mind trying to tell us to stop so we can do something more fun? Is this really a dead-end in our learning or are we just feeling stuck right now? Notice the feeling when it comes up and be curious about the feeling. Note when you get the feeling and where it is in your body. Then continue the work, continuing to notice all of the feelings you're having. When you're done you can reflect more on those feelings and make an honest determination of whether those feelings were the result of what you were learning or were because you're having doubts.
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+If, however, you realize that you're really not enjoying the learning; if you feel like you're constantly having to muster the courage to sit and learn, then you may want to have an honest discussion with yourself about why you're learning this in the first place. Is this still relevant to you or has the moment passed? Are you learning this out of an obligation to yourself or others, and is that obligation still present? Are you trying to learn whatever it is because you're worried you'll be left behind, whether that's personally or professionally? Think about what brought you to start learning this and see if the situation has changed. If someone came up to your computer and asked you if you wanted to learn this would you still jump at the chance?
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+There have been many things in my career that I have tried to learn, but there have been many more that I haven't learned. Part of those is because the computing landscape changed. At school I learned the Pascal language. I got reasonably good at it but over time those skills faded. Right now there's very little need for being a proficient Pascal programmer so continuing to develop my Pascal skills would be purely for my own enjoyment. I find other things enjoyable so those skills lay dormant. Should Pascal arise from its moribund state I can revisit the decision. But for now I'm content that I've made the right call. Later in my career the Java language came to prominence. I spent many sessions learning Java until I realized that I didn't enjoy the language. It felt too cumbersome to me and the directions it was taking weren't ones that I cared to pursue. So after some reflection I stopped learning Java. Was this all wasted time? Hardly. During my sessions I learned more about Object Oriented Programming and how objects fit together. I learned more about recursion while trying to solve a problem for one of my projects. These skills transcend Java, so when I started learning Python I was more up to speed on how objects worked so I could better understand what Python was doing and how it was different from Java. And should the need arise I can revisit my decision to learn Java and see if it's something that interests me again.
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+It's OK to give up on learning something for a while. We are complex beings and our interests change. We also exist in a complex industry of changing technologies and whims. What was interesting and necessary at the beginning of the year might be uninteresting and unnecessary at the end of the year. It's up to us as programmers to understand our learning process and adapt as our needs and desires change.
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